tomorrow!?

What do you think she will look like?
Do you think she will look like Cassidy?
Will we finally get that red head we want?
Who will she be more like?

All these questions plus many many more will all be answered by tomorrow. Induction is still on schedule for 7am. As I am completely nervous about the whole thing, I am ready. I am ready to have our baby. I am ready to sleep on my belly. I am ready for the swelling to be gone. I am ready for the immense constant pressure to go away. Pitocin is the part that scares me. When I had it with Cassidy my body reacted awful. Blood pressure went up, heart rate went up temperature came up out of no where and Cassidy went into fetal distress. They turned it off, and viola. All issues were solved.

Also I am slightly bummed because I had my whole hypnobirthing plan. Of course, I have an actual plan and guess what? It just aint in the books! However, as my mother has reassured me I can still do my birth plan, just...modified. So new game plan. I am determined to be at least 3cm when I get there. Mind over matter. Totally works. And I will have them break my water. IF I have to do pitocin, I will do a very little bit. I would rather be in labor for days then to risk what happened last time. I am still excited that there will be a midwife on board tomorrow. They work 7am-7pm, and there are usually at least 2 on. Which is perfect. That is part of my plan. To be delivered by a midwife. I had a NST yesterday and Zoey's heart rate was perfect, between 150 and 151 the whole time. My blood pressure was 122/80. Can we say perfect again? AND I was contracting every 3-4 mins. I came home and still was contracting, contracted through the night and now am still contracting. Not as regularly as before, but about 9 mins apart.

So today is the last day for many things. For us being a three person family. For us having just one daughter. For a good nights sleep. A somewhat quiet house at times. A regular bedtime. Getting out of the house easily. However. Tomorrow will be the first of many amazing and precious moments. Sisters. I can not believe it. Cassidy is going to be a BIG sister. I am so excited for her. I am so excited for our family. And I am so completely grateful for the support and love our family and friends have given us. <3