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I told myself I wasn't going to fall off the blogging wagon..but alas I have. So, where to begin?! I feel like so much has happened within the last few months.

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Cassidy has started the Laurel School and she absolutely loves it! Ian and I were nervous at first because at Janice's it was a different atmosphere. Yes Cassidy learned tons there, but it wasn't really like a school. Janice was like all these little kids hen mother. Giving kisses and saying I love you when the day was over. Mrs. Michelle, her new teacher, is much more formal. Which I suppose they have to be now a days with how lawsuit happy everyone in America is. But nonetheless, Cassidy is thriving there as well. It helps that some of her classmates from Janice are going there as well. Cassidy loves doing her "homework", teaching mommy and daddy how to speak Spanish, and going over the letter of the week! When I dropped Cass off yesterday I did notice that Mrs. Michelle took her in for a big hug, that made me happy. And the love that she has for Zoey is amazing. The bond our two girls have is heart warming. True meaning of sisters.

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Zoey is almost 5 months old! She really amazes me every day. She is so incredibly loving. Smiles and laughs all the time. EXCEPT, when she had her 4 month shots. Holy Crap was I scared. She was acting like a completely different baby. Crying whenever I would put her down, fussing non stop. Spiked high fevers for a week, 102.7 and 103.1. That is some scary stuff! Stuffy nose, bad cough you name it. Our poor baby had it all. Eff those stupid shots. I am definitely spacing them out. I am not against vaccines however I am against the horrible side effects that all doctors claim don't happen...I am calling BS people! She is starting to sit up by herself. You can just tell she wants to run after her sister. She just watches Cassidy and gets all adorably frustrated that she can't catch her. I still can not believe I have a child with blue eyes! eeek! I love it! I did ask for a boy with red hair and blue eyes. Now thinking back, I am so happy I have two girls. I never had a sister growing up and I always wanted one. Now that I have two daughters I am excited to see them grow up together. It always comes to my mind that we are so incredibly lucky to have these two wondeful girls in our lives, but luck doesn't explain it. They are a blessing.

And for the grownups? We are doing great. So much has changed for us the past year, year and a half. We are learning and growing together. Ian is my rock. Yes we bicker and fight but there is a love that runs so deep between us. I can be mad as ever at him, but he just looks at me with that quite quirky smile (that both girls have inherited) and it's all over. Happiness has consumed me. I am learning each day to just "let go". This is something I have always struggled with. I have a tough exterior but I really let things get to me. I fester about things.Things that are out of my control bother me like no other. But recently I have come to learn letting go and just be happy is the best route. There are things in my life I wish I could change, more so relationships with people. But hey, I have tried all my best and it is time to just let go. Not let go of the relationships, but the expectations. Not everyone feels or acts the way you would expect them too, and that is just A-okay. When I look back on my life I want to know that the choices I made were mine and with every choice the outcome was best for me and my family. A new mantra for me.

                                                             Live and let live.