Change is in the Air

Love her smile

Life seems so routine lately. Wake up, be mommy, go to work (still be mommy), come home to be mommy, make dinner, put kids to bed and go to bed. I love being a mommy but sometimes it is just plain exhausting! I try to spice things up by setting up play dates every day, or having some sort of activity to do because if not Cassidy can be very difficult. She is definitely not one of those kids that can sit and color for hours, she may do it for ten minutes but then its on to the next thing or WORSE, she gets bored coloring on paper and that my friends, is how walls and cats get colored on...ah, the joys of cleaning marker and paint off everything in a three year olds reach!

12' gone of dead weight!

I hate feeling like I'm in a rut. Doing the same things over and over. So I decided to chop my hair off. Yep. Over 12 inches! It feels so great! I can take a quick shower and get ready in less than 20 minutes. Now that is quite an accomplishment. I've worn it down in the past week more than I have in the past year! It is just so manageable. Love it! Recently I have felt like I have cut more out of my life than just hair. You ever have that realization that some people just aren't there for you like they used to be? I honestly and proudly can say I have great friends and family. I've always prided myself on my judgement of people and surrounded myself with amazing good hearted people. Well, recently I just feel like I have been fooled. People pretending to be people they aren't just to feel a part of something. Sucking up all the resources you have when they are down and out and need you then as soon as they are back on their feet then BAM, who are you again? I have decided things probably will never be the same with some people, and frankly I think we are all okay with that decision.

my "tart"

On the flip side, I have also been reconnecting with a lot of lost/old friends and family members. It is great. Not seeing someone for years then seeing them again and acting as if no time has passed, that is just an unbelievable feeling. There are definitely changes happening all around me. And they all seem to be pretty good ones. I have started to hang out with my friends again. I was totally out of commission for a while after having Zoey (obviously), but now that she is on a pretty solid routine when Ian is home I am able to let loose a little. For me, when I feel like I am in a rut I can definitely become somewhat destructive. I know that about myself and I know it is not a good thing. Ian also knows that too. So when he suggests I should go and have some fun with my friends and he will stay in with the girls, I jump right on that! Going out for dinner and drinks, meeting up for coffee, going to the movies. These are all things I need. I need some "me" time sometimes, just like everyone else.

big girl

Mommy time is great though. Cassidy or as we call her CassiDIVA, is definitely pushing the limits lately. But what three year old isn't? She is also becoming so much more independent. Playing by herself, getting herself dressed, helping with making dinner. I look at pictures and just can not believe how big she is getting, and not only that but mature looking too! Her new thing is to rock sunglasses whenever we go out. She wants to be "just like mommy". God she still melts my heart. It's not just her getting so big though. Zoey is growing like a weed and doing more and more each day. And all her cousins are just getting to be "big" kids.


Nicholson Girls

the big kids

I am really happy Cassidy and Zoey have so many friends and cousins on the Cape to play with. Being around family is very important to me and our girls are around family members just about every single day. I want them to grow up knowing eachother rather than just being told "this is your cousin".

Well Miss Zoey is now a little over 10 weeks! I still can not believe how fast time is flying by! She is by far the best 10 week old baby ever! :) She laughs and smiles almost all day, every day. She is just happy. And why wouldn't she be!? She has a great sissy who absolutely adores her (I have video proof just for when they are older and can't stand eachother!) and loves to hold her and take care of her. Cassidy helps me put Zoey to bed and change her diapers and outfits. She loves being involved. Zoey eyes are still staying blue and getting lighter! I can't believe I have a blue eyed beauty. Now I am hoping her hair is a strawberry blonde <3 At her two month appointment she was 14.8 lbs and a little over 22". The little sprout grew a whole two inches in three weeks! These girls mean so much to me. Even when they can be tough and fighting sleeping, or throwing tantrums, I really wouldn't change that for anything.