38 days and counting...

braxton hicks that is. Jesus Christmas these are no joke. Seriously, when I was pregnant with Cassidy I had NO symptoms...well besides gaining 70lbs and having a person move inside me...with this little princess I have had them all...
morning sickness
cramping
heart beat scare in the beginning
inguinal hernia
braxton hicks up the wahzoo
aches and pains
swelling
the list could seriously go on for pages.
I think back to the moment I knew I was pregnant. It was right away, I mean...RIGHT away I knew. I went into the bathroom, got nausea and a bloody nose. I never have bloody noses...except when pregnant. I came back into the bedroom and looked at Ian and said "definitely got pregnant on that one". He just laughed at me, I'm sure he was thinking "oh silly woman, how could you ever be so intuitive..." JOKES ON YOU HUNNY! Knowing I had a wedding in three months I didn't quite know what to do. I had somewhat convinced myself that Ian was right. No way I could have gotten pregnant. I thought about it all the next day. And the following day I decided I would take the morning after pill. I was still in my 72hr window. Well, needless to say that didn't work. Zoey means life in Greek. We didn't find that out til after we decided to name her Zoey. How fitting right?
Now I couldn't imagine if that pill had worked. Brings me to tears thinking I could be missing out on this incredible journey with this beautiful, amazing, already such a personality baby girl. She was always meant to be ours.

Cassidy is going to be an amazing big sister. She loves playing with the belly and saying "zoey zoey zoey". It is just too cute. She has told me she is going to help with everything, feeding, putting to bed, changing her diapers (not the poopy ones though, thats "gross" ;]). I know she is so excited to meet her. Zoey is already so in love with her too. Everytime she hears Cassidy's voice or feels her touch she moves to that spot immediately. Same with Ian. She doesn't do that for anyone else. It is really neat to know that when she comes into this world, she will already know daddy and her big sister. We will all already have a connection. A deep family bond. I am so excited for that.
We are moving this weekend. I can't really do much. I went through my shoes yesterday and gave most of them to my cousin but just going through them made me exhuasted. I had to sit. Seriously?! I can't even accomplish one task without getting braxton hicks and having to sit down. Then again I am at the end. I guess I need to remember that. Eight days away from 9 months. HOLY COW.
I am so entirely grateful for what my life is. Who is in it, and who is not. I am the happiest I have ever been. Really. I feel complete.