Waiting Game

Well 13 days left until little miss Zoey's due date. I really can not wait to meet her. But I wonder if she is feeling some of my nervousness and is tuckered down because of it. The only thing that I have not done one my "before Zoey comes list" is to clean out my car and install the car seat. For some reason I have been putting it off. Probably because the idea of being bent over is one I do not want to think about. Bending over is one of THE hardest things to do when this pregnant. I bend down and her little bum hits my rib cage, and let me tell YOU that is not a feeling that tickles.

I am excited to do my hypnobirthing but also a little nervous about it. It is going to really hurt. I am well aware of that. I just hope that I can put my mind to this and keep it that way. I know my mom will be a great support for me. I told her she needs to remind me of the pain I went through after Cassidy was born due to the epidural making my spinal fluid leak. I couldn't stand up for two weeks straight after she was born. It was awful. That memory alone I am hoping will make it so I do NOT get one or better yet will convince my mind to not want one.

I miss Ian. He has been working a lot recently. Especially with me out of work. Three doubles in a row than a day shift THAN a night off. Cassidy and I both really miss him. He is such a great husband and daddy. Yes there are moments where we disagree and bicker, but my honest opinion has and will always be...if you are in a realtionship in which you NEVER argue or bicker than someone is not being truthful and therefore is not happy. There is no way possible two people can be exactly the same. And if for some crazy reason you found someone JUST like you...why would you ever date them? Sounds pretty boring to me. I like the challenges. I love learning how to work together and implenting different ideas to achieve the best outcome. Ian and I are different and may aruge but when push comes to shove we are ALWAYS there for eachother, and we work as a team.

Wishing this dreary weather would go away...I could really use a nice long walk. Zoey is definately getting ready. The amount of pressure I am feeling is so intense. Braxton Hicks are turning more into more long and painful contractions. I get them for about two hours than they just go away. I am hoping my water breaks again...this whole counting contractions thing is NOT my forte. Well speaking of braxton hicks...ooooof